i dont quite know what i'm doing. i dont quite know what direction i'm headed in. i dont know how far this will go, if it will take off, if i'm doing the right thing...am i nuts? is this going to again be some half thought out scheme that i'm sooo excited about in the beginning and fizzles out in the end? i hope not. i do know however that today in fact, is my one year anniversary at my current job. In the past few months I've seen friends graduate college, get married, have children, start new jobs, relocate, find religion, the list goes on and on. I've been pondering in my head of what i'm supposed to be doing with my life. am i supposed to be stuck in this call center with barely any college education, working 40hrs to put food on the table for a little girl that has my heart, and to barely stay ahead of a few bills? i dont think so. i dont think that is what my life was destined to be.
since i was a little girl i've been a bit of a dreamer, not really a realist. and i've always had this desire to be, not necessarily famous, but well known. i want my opinion heard and respected. and i like people. i like being around people, hearing what they have to say, seeing them, smelling them, feeling them. i like the energy of the world around me. i want to feel the heartbeats of each and every person on this earth. now of course this is not really possible. but in my own little space on the web, maybe i can find a bit of a sense of purpose. check me out. post comments, pictures, links, i dont care. i feel like i'm about to take off. and i want you to come with me.
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Well, honestly, I KNOW you're not supposed to be in a call center for the rest of your life. Ever since I've known you, I've always thought you were so super duper bright....I think U even beat me in a spelling bee once...to my surprise :D yeah i'm still holding that grudge. Anyway, I think you need to surround yourself with people whom are going to help you mentally, and spiritually....Personally I've tried to reach out to u - but I think my invitation wasn't accepted. Anywhoo, I know your future is going to be bright. Stay at your job for a while, get your education....maybe we can be business partners one day. Just keep your head up and do what you have to do. I know school will be hard with a full time job and a child...but there are options. So, if you need me - you have my number...unless u deleted it HAHA. U know who this is, and u know where to reach me.
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You're always where your'e supposed to be. You reading this right now is what youre supposed to be doing. And you wont be working at Safeco forever... Nothing is permanent.
ReplyDeleteu need to get a real man that can help u and stop fucking with boys.real men help their women.
ReplyDeletethey help their women mentally,financially, and emotionally.U not in high school anymore sanoi. step your expectations,and game up
ReplyDeleteJasmine your life is just beginning and I KNOW you are meant to do something great and fulfilling, around PEOPLE...probably helping people. You have so many talents and special gifts and you make people around you feel wonderful about themselves! It's good that you're thinking about what you want and there's no reason why you can't achieve it. My suggestion is this: Make a list. It sounds so simple but one of these days sit down and make a list of what you want. Clear everyone else out of your head and write everything down. EVERYTHING no matter how crazy- the list is just for you- for you to know. After that you can look at it and see what is doable and how to take baby steps toward them. Seriously try it...lists really, really help!
ReplyDeleteruchi, u are really right about the list thing! i made a few different ones, and they DO help! and they have helped me create a few ideas which i believe are attuning me to my purpose! (details, to follow later)!!!!
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