just one of dem days

well, well, well...
i am most certainly frustrated...its like-
when you are trying to do right, when your life is going good...something inevitably happens...i dont know, its like, the supreme karmic balance of the universe or something like...
so this is the deal.

woke up this morning and my neck is completely stiff. it hurts. i'm in pain. so i figure a boiling hot shower (just how i like it) will cure me and soothe me.
well, true- that worked but in the process i got like, all of the back of my hair wet. so, i totally got this new short haircut a couple of weeks ago and its not necessarily so short that i can just slick it down and like you know...play it off? i mean, its GOTTA be styled cuz if i leave it wet it will just totally look like a wet dog. so since i dont wanna walk around lookin like a wet bitch (play on words lol), i decided to blow dry it. and since i did, but didnt have time to curl it, now i look like a damn porcupine. but now since i'm runnin late, i dont really care anymore so i just get my daughter ready and we head out the door.

in all of my haste, i leave my phone at home. TORTURE! well at least, i HOPE its at home cuz now i just cant even find it. so of course i'm walking around in a zombie-like daze, feeling disjointed.

and if this day is not bad enough, i get to work and have a meeting with my boss. lets just say, its not good.

i have 3hrs and 10min until the end of this work day, and i am hoping i can keep my sanity. cuz this is truly, in the words of MONICA circa 1990's ,"JUST ONE OF DEM DAYS".
heaven bless the soul that pisses me off right now.

but hopefully with the karmic balance of the universe (in keeping with my theory) three wonderful things will happen and positively cap a truly horrific day...i at least have a 3 day wkd coming up so hopefully i will have something terrific to report soon...

big ideas

so i have a really big idea. i mean huge, i mean GARGANTUAN (sp) and i can hardly contain myself. so much to do and i just want to dedicate all of my time to IT. but i cant...i must continue to live life as i have been before, while all along working on my latest project. but this time with meaning and direction, this time- a plan, a motivation, an inspired sense of persistance. a fire under my behind, if you will lol.

i'm excited.

can't say i feel too bad, chris...sorry, homie!
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090825/ap_en_mu/us_people_chris_brown

cant get no better...oh wait, it did.

so i thought that 300 was the pennacle of this man's career.
(even though i never really knew of him before)
but i was at the movies watching inglorious basterds with my boyfriend and i saw two trailers for new movies...
lo and behold with a bit of research i've learned a bit more about my "scottie-hottie" crush.

and just when i though he couldnt get any better, i reach the 3rd sentence from the bottom of this article.

http://movies.yahoo.com/news/movies.ap.org/qa-after-30039-gerard-butler-still-battling-ap

this cube gets smaller and smaller every day

new beginnings

i dont quite know what i'm doing. i dont quite know what direction i'm headed in. i dont know how far this will go, if it will take off, if i'm doing the right thing...am i nuts? is this going to again be some half thought out scheme that i'm sooo excited about in the beginning and fizzles out in the end? i hope not. i do know however that today in fact, is my one year anniversary at my current job. In the past few months I've seen friends graduate college, get married, have children, start new jobs, relocate, find religion, the list goes on and on. I've been pondering in my head of what i'm supposed to be doing with my life. am i supposed to be stuck in this call center with barely any college education, working 40hrs to put food on the table for a little girl that has my heart, and to barely stay ahead of a few bills? i dont think so. i dont think that is what my life was destined to be.
since i was a little girl i've been a bit of a dreamer, not really a realist. and i've always had this desire to be, not necessarily famous, but well known. i want my opinion heard and respected. and i like people. i like being around people, hearing what they have to say, seeing them, smelling them, feeling them. i like the energy of the world around me. i want to feel the heartbeats of each and every person on this earth. now of course this is not really possible. but in my own little space on the web, maybe i can find a bit of a sense of purpose. check me out. post comments, pictures, links, i dont care. i feel like i'm about to take off. and i want you to come with me.